wow. being used my God. so hard. i finally broke down in tears today...and, not too long ago from this blog. i prayed for God to use me. I prayed for a biblestudy to go to. I prayed about starting up a biblestudy. He answered all those prayers! amen! but i didn't pray about being the leader. i feel like i'm in way over my head. i've dug a hole to deep. i know God brought me on as the leader for a reason. but i feel so unprepared. i feel inadequate. i feel like i can't lead. i don't feel like i know the bible enough. or in our case that i don't know this book enough. like what did i get out of reading chapter 1? what does God want me to share with the girl's? i went into this thinking i'd be just one of the girl's at the study. but i'm the one that's, what i like to say, "facilitating" the study, not leading it. but i am in fact the leader. i started it up. but i don't want to "preach." i wanted it to be, get a book, read it on our own, meet up, pray and discuss it. which is exactly how i want it to run. but there's chapter and i know what i got out of it. i read the study guide to chapter 1. i read the questions they have in the back to ask those in your biblestudy group-but there was only 2 questions. what else am i supposed to ask?! where am i supposed to come up with other questions...and how do i get the study going for at least an hour? i know God will make it happen. i can just be honest with the girl's. maybe it'll be group led in a sense. that each girl's thoughts and takes on the study will be more than enough to fill the study. i just ranted and raved. please pray for me and this study and what i am supposed to share. thanks!
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